Encouragement for Your Health Journey

Health can be such a tricky thing to fix. You can try and try but there can always be something else that is wrong or broken. It can be severely discouraging experience, but you can never lose hope! I am personally trying desperately to be healthy so I know the struggle. It is like a never ending battle between needing the energy to get healthy and needing to get healthy so that you have energy. The only way to change it is to break the cycle. To do this you need to find any way possible to stop it as soon as possible. Usually you cannot do this on your own, so you need to ask for help. Do not be afraid to ask for help! If I had not asked for help then I would not be about to apply for a job and go to dance next week. Little steps lead to big steps. It is okay to take a little time get your balance. 

School Begins!

     Today I went and met my teachers for the enrichment program I am completing. I have two teachers but three classes as I mentioned before. Two of the classes are taught by the same teacher: Beginning Piano and Beginning Guitar. I have played both of these instruments before but I have never been taught or played regularly. The best thing about this program is that I am going to be a Student Assistant for one of the classes because I have an off hour. There are two math classes, a composition class, and an art class available to be an assistant for. Obviously I am hoping to assist the art teacher since I am considering getting a minor in art so that I can teach it but I never have tried teaching. I would not decline the other classes but I would be very disappointed. I met a few people that have at least one class with me. One is older, one is younger, but they seem really nice and maybe I will befriend them.
     I cannot wait till I get my Physics curriculum. Everyone seems to be sold out of the Chemistry I am going to take this year but I do not need it till January. I still need to get Adv. Math, but that is not a pressing issue since I still need to finish Algebra 2.
     So a little while ago, I convinced my brother to read the Harry Potter series with me. Before, I was three books ahead of him but now I am half a book behind. Right now I am exactly half way done with the series. After this series is done, I think that I will convince him to read the Percy Jackson series since I know that it is a lot of mythology. I know it has lots of spin-offs with different mythology in them so I think that he would enjoy it. In case you did not know, there are five books in the "Percy Jackson and the Olympians" series, five books in the "Heroes of Olympus" series (the fifth book is being released October 7th, by the way), and three books in the "Kane Chronicles". So that gives us at least 13 books to read after Harry Potter and then we can say we read twenty books together! After that, I have not planned that far ahead...Eventually, the Norse mythology series will come out and we will read that!
     Well I should go sleep....or read..... or both...no wait both wont work....dernit...it is three o'clock in the morning and is both too late and too early for this...

High School Junior 2014

     My life...what a stupendous mess...the last time I blogged was a year ago! This last year was one of the hardest in my life. The first semester was actually pretty good! I started school, I got two solos in my productions at dance, I was feeling good and doing well. This year is very different. I am not performing in a production and I am going to a new school. The second semester of last year I got mono. This completely ruined seven months of my life and is still affecting it. I did get back into reading a lot and watching really good shows and movies but if I had had a choice, I would have rather danced and been well. My worship dance company has moved me into advanced levels which I an exceedingly grateful for. I stopped running very long ago but I hope to continue that as well as swimming and ballet.
     Recently, I have had a wonderful obsession with film, acting, and things of the sort. I have been weighing my options of pursuing acting or ballet as a career. Neither will be easy or convenient and I love both, I think. I have only had experience long enough in ballet to judge whether I love it or not. Dance has always been a passion for me and while I can see myself acting, I really love ballet. I could dance for now since there are so many opportunities for dance where I live and very few for acting.
     The most recent film I have been enamored with is The Lord of the Rings trilogy. I have always loved these and saw them when I was very young, but in the last two days, I have seen all three with the cast commentary. I never thought that I would be able to understand or immerse myself into the world further (without reading the books of course) but I was. Every time I would usually cry, I cried so much harder because I knew what the actors were perceiving and thinking and their mindset behind what they decided to do. Also, without listening to the soundtrack and dialogue fully, I was able to see all the visual techniques that were used by the amazing Peter Jackson. It is like when you lose one sense the others become stronger, I believe. I have never wanted to read the books more!
     For school this year I am learning many subjects since I missed a few credits last semester. I am studying Chemistry, Physics, Algebra 2, Advanced Mathematics, U.S. History, English, French 2, and taking classes in piano, guitar, and research essays. My English class is the most complicated. I have a grammar book, the essay class, Shakespearean Literature, general reading, this blog, and NaNoWriMo! Oh the joys of homeschooling! It sure is a lot but I have an entire year to complete it so I am not worried.
     I am really trying to get well enough to get a job soon. Otherwise I cannot pay for my dance classes. Or anything else for that matter. There are so many things that I "need" that I can only buy for myself, just because my family does not have enough money to get everything for me, so I need to be able to get money myself. This is probably the hardest because I have fairly bad anxiety and depression so it is a struggle for me to think through that situation. I keep fading between "wow I being such a wimp. Just suck it up and get a job..." and "Oh dear Lord, I am having a panic attack, I can't breathe, oh my, I need money, I need this and that and and and........stressful..." So yeah I am kind of lost in my stupendous mess of a life.
     In other parts of my life, I am trying to reduce my possessions. I have an abundance of yarn so I am knitting a bunch to use it up. I am using up my paints and things in my art collection to reduce that a bit. I am also trying to find lots of D.I.Y. projects to use up some things in my collections. Reduce, reuse, and recycle, right? Also, BBC has ruined me for most American shows and movies with actually character depth... :)